I'm homeless in two weeks.
I'm jobless in four weeks.
Worst of all: I've fallen - am falling - for someone.
Damn.
There's absolutely no certainty in my life right now. Everything after September is completely unclear, completely unknown. This is terrifying on so many levels -- where am I going to live? how am I going support myself? am I getting closer or further towards a break, towards success, my goals? But there's a lot to be said for this uncertainty. There's so much beauty in the unknown, so much to learn and be inspired by if you can throw yourself fully into that universal ebb-and-flow of change and transition.
Things are going to come to me, things are going to happen. I feel like I'm at the cusp of transition, after a year in limbo. I need to keep my chin up now, keeping searching and fighting and hoping. And we'll see where the cards fall, come September.
Regardless, I'll do the best I can at playing my hand.
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Mom and Dad are going to be so curious.
Ahaha..
Um, I think you did quite well surviving your first year of more-or-less complete uncertainty, so what's an extra month? Wish I had been able to catch up with you more this past Saturday.
Thanks Adam. I guess you're right.
Agreed, but we'll catch up soon, though!
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